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Mistaken All Our Lives Part 3

Come and read my story of addiction, getting paralyzed, and finding religion in some strange ways.

Strangers Approaching Me

So here we are again with my ongoing story here. For those who may not know my name is Christa Bruns and I was paralyzed due to my drug and needle usage 8 years ago. So if anyone would like to go back and read the first 2 posts of Mistaken All Our Lives Part 1 and Mistaken All Our Lives Part 2, feel free to go and catch up. There is nothing to the catching up here because I never really know where in the hell I am or where I am going with things like these.

So I got out there and kept myself busy with therapy, and getting myself back into school. I wanted to get my degree at first in Addictions Counselor. Or something along those lines. I wanted to help people out there who were still struggling with addiction issues, those who felt there was no hope.

I really though that I would like working that type of job. I have not completely changed my mind on this matter. But I have been rethinking it a little. In light of the problems that addicts have everyday of their lives , I have been rethinking my choice of career. I am starting to think that working in that type of environment day in and day out would be pretty damned depressing! I know addicts way too well. And I know that we are all hard headed and have to learn those hard lessons first.

So I am thinking of going into computers or something life that. I am very interested in computers and always trying to learn more about them. Plus it pays a lot more money. And just work at helping other addicts on the side.

So anyways I am out shopping at Walmart one day with my granddaughter. We were going through all of the new plants they had just put out for spring. When an old woman comes up to me and takes my hands asking me if it would be alright if she were to pray with us. I told her that was fine. And so she started praying while gripping my hands tightly.

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My granddaughter Addy was taking all of this in and not looking too sure about the whole scene. After I departed ways from the grandmotherly type woman, Addy asked me what that woman had been doing with her mamaw. She was a little rattled by the attention the old woman had shown towards us. She definitely did not understand what was going on.

I just explained that sometimes people came up to me and wanted to hear my story. Usually it would start with what happened to you. Because even though I am walking again, you can definitely tell that there was something that happened to cause me to not walk as well as I used to.

So she went home telling everyone that there were strange people coming up and wanting to touch mamaw. So while it was a little different than I was used to, I still was used to things like this happening in my life. I have always been someone that people would come to when they needed help. Animals were the same way. I have never met a dog or cat that did not like me.

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So it was not a long time afterwards when some stranger things started to happen to me, and it’s going to be hard to get all of it wrote down like this, but I will try. So I will tell you this first. My boyfriend kept on trying to get me to read the Bible. Like I said before I have never been religious. And we never really went to church when I was growing up.

So this became an argument between him and I for awhile. He kept telling me that he wanted me to read it because I understood certain things better than he ever did. So he thought that I would be able to explain some things to him once I read it. Then he started telling me that something was telling him that he needed to get me to read it soon.

So I kept on saying my same argument. It was written by men and it had been altered by many as time as went by. So I did not trust in the words. I believed in a higher power and I also was being stubborn because he had a way of saying things that would piss me off.

So one day I started feeling an urge to read the Bible. And when I went online to pull up the Bible I found myself at revelations. Now I had read revelations when I was younger. Did not understand much about it, but I had some overall knowledge of what it contained. This helped with my knowledge on religion throughout my life.

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Once I read through the entire chapter I was really in awe. I went to the boyfriend and talked to him about what it was that I had read and interpreted from it. Well he was not too thrilled to hear what it was that I told him. And I am actually not going to get into all of that at this point. That is a whole other can of worms that I will be opening, but not at this moment.

So after I had read revelations, I was investigating into other parts of the Bible. Trying to figure out information on the internet pertaining to what I had found. Then I got sick. And while it started out as just a normal sort of cold. It turned into a really bad sickness and I found out when I went to the er that I had Covid.

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So I went to the er because I lost my sense of smell one day. About 2 weeks into being sick this happened. I was spraying my perfumes and I went to see if I liked the smell and I could not smell it. At first I was like, well this one must be bad. So I grabbed another one and tried it out. Same thing. I could not smell it at all! I had heard this information from a few other friends who had gotten covid a while back.

So I was pretty sure that I had it. With the way I had been feeling and then the loss of my smell. My daughters were worried about me with all of the past issues of getting paralyzed. My oldest daughter was telling me that they knew some people who had gotten it and were on ventilators because of it. So I went to the er one day because I got to feeling even worse than I had before.

They tested me and confirmed what I already knew. I had covid. They did some other tests and a chest x-ray while I was there. But everything came back as good. The Dr sent me home saying to drink plenty of fluids and get plenty of rest. That was not hard to do. Unlike other sicknesses I had in the past, this one was not going to let me get up and do hardly anything. I was not used to being so sick that I could barely get up and walk into the other part of the trailer.

As I lay there in bed feeling as if I would die, a thought came to me about what I had been looking up concerning the Bible. And I felt at that moment that dark forces were working against my every move these days. I felt as if I would never open up another page in the Bible. And my mind started working against me saying that what I had interpreted in revelations was probably wrong. Just a figure of my imagination.

I mean who was I anyways? I was nothing special. No one important. I still have a long way too go when it came to working on myself. Not to mention all the bad things I had done throughout my life. My addiction issues had really caused me to get a nice long list of bad I had done. Most being mainly done to family members. So anyways I was not feeling like god was on my side in those days surrounding my being sick. But I see now how he absolutely was there. Because no matter what the devil throws my way, it seems like god will come in and save me from it.

I also would like to point one other thing out here. I know I am all over the place and I hope that you can keep up with the way I am writing. I never claimed to be a best selling author that is for sure! But me and my boyfriend have been together for about 15 years now. And we have never had a perfect relationship by far. Things were steadily getting worse between us after I had bought my trailer here in our hometown of Connersville. He quit his job at a factory in Richmond. Which is what caused me to move back to Connersville and try to find a place that I could handle on my own.

Things had seemed to be a little off inside my little trailer from time to time. I never had truly believed in supernatural occurrences until then. I did not disbelieve. But I had never experienced anything myself throughout my life.

But there were times when we could not deny that something was causing things to fall or a number of other occurrences that seemed to put a person in a very bad mood at times. And then when you were in a bad mood, you would trip over 5 things trying to get to the bathroom. Which really would set off your mood for good sometimes.

A video my phone captured while I was using as a security camera through the Alfred app.

So in the above video my phone had captured this event when I left it outside one day. The odds of me finding this particular video were pretty astronomical. But find it I certainly did. While browsing through the tons of videos it had captured while being out on the table, I just happened to click on this one video and saw the movement of the camera.

This app that I used on my phone, was a cheap way to make a security camera from using your cellular phone. It is called Alfred. And I always had it set on motion detection.

So I have to say that the motion detection sometimes caused it to catch many, many videos at times. Useless events that were triggered by nothing more that lighting or the flickering of the candles. As is what happened in the above video. There were a ton of videos captured that day. All because the app was picking up the flickering of the candle that was in it’s line of vision.

Since I could visibly see that it was nothing in most of the videos, I only looked at a few. Well it just so happens that I clicked right on the exact right one to see this. So this is either a couple people sneaking around and are very good at it, or something else is turning the camera. You decide if there is an explanation for it.

Check out Supernatural or Super Explainable?

So as you can see in the video, there seemed to be a little something, something, going on around my trailer. And we will just leave it at that for now. Until next time!

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I am 47 and have 3 grown daughters. And I have 1 granddaughter who I am crazy about! I am a recovering heroin addict who has now been clean for over 7 years now. Well I should say clean from needles for that amount of time. I can’t say completely clean because my Dr’s had me on methadone pills for a while when I was first released from the hospital. I then self medicated myself and went to a Dr for a while for suboxone. Which I then used to get myself off of the methadone pills. I was paralyzed as a result of using needles. My Dr’s never thought that I would walk again with the amount of infection they had to remove from my spinal cord. Yet I am now walking! Unassisted even. I do not require a cane or anything to walk now, is what I mean by unassisted. I do better with a cane but I can actually do it without it. So I have been back to school and almost have my associates degree in general studies. I was focusing on going to school to be a drug and alcohol counselor. I have changed my mind on that now and I have been focusing on doing affiliate sales and working on my website. These projects that I have been doing for the last 4-5 years is what has been literally saving my life! And keeping me off of the drugs! I am trying to bring about some awareness concerning addiction and what can happen to a person if they use needles with my website. Though I changed my mind on working as a counselor I still want to try and help others out there who are still struggling with their addictions. So I hope that you will follow me either on my blog or my Facebook pages and help support getting addicts the help that they really need. Instead of the stereotype labels they get here in America as well as the criminal label they acquire when they cannot just quit their use of drugs or alcohol.

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